THE DAY IT GOT REAL

              Friday 2nd August 

           ENGLISH VERSION

What a day! I still haven't learnt patience even though I knew I was going to be in for a long eventful day. I was asked to register at 7:00 a.m but my operation didn't happen until 3pm!

As I was requested to fast from 11:00 p.m the night before, headaches started to kick in the morning and did not subside until I went under.

Very uneventful morning, once registered we basically played the waiting game watching other people come and go for various surgeries.

After 5 hours of sitting next to me Steve had to go and that's when the reality kicked in. The fear was not around losing my breasts or being in pain from the surgery but to not wake up and leave my kids without a mum.

This was the time to let go not only of my breasts, but also of the tears that I've probably been holding back for so long.

So after a 4 hours surgery, I awoke and even if I'm in a lot of pain and discomfort, I'm very grateful to be alive and looking forward to seeing my beautiful kids soon.

Thanks again to all for your messages that accompany me during this long and hard wait.

         VERSION FRANÇAISE 

Quelle journée ! Je n'ai toujours pas appris la patience, même si je savais que j'allais avoir une journée longue et chargée. On m'avait demandé de me présenter à 7h00, mais mon opération n'a eu lieu qu'à 15h00 !

Comme on m'avait demandé de jeûner depuis 23h la veille, les maux de tête ont commencé à se manifester le matin et ne se sont atténués qu'une fois que j'étais sous anesthésie.

Une matinée très monotone ; une fois enregistrée, nous avons essentiellement attendu en regardant d'autres personnes venir et repartir pour diverses opérations.

Après 5 heures à attendre à mes côtés, Steve a dû partir et c'est là que la réalité m'a frappé. La peur n'était pas de perdre mes seins ou d'avoir mal après l'opération, mais de ne pas me réveiller et laisser mes enfants sans maman.

C'était le moment de lâcher prise, non seulement de mes seins, mais aussi de mes larmes que j'ai retenu pendant si longtemps.

Après une opération de 4 heures, je me suis réveillée et même si je souffre beaucoup, je suis très reconnaissante d'être en vie et impatiente de retrouver mes magnifiques enfants bientôt.

Merci encore à tous pour tout vos messages qui m'ont accompagné pendant cette longue et dure attente.




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